In the beginning of November, I was offered a job position in Moses Lake, which is located about 170 miles east of Seattle with a population of about 25,000. Not the smallest town but definitely the smallest town I've ever lived in. It has been a ... transition and things were extremely stressful at times but I felt like I was finally in a place where I can take a step back and give my brain a chance to organize some the chaos that has been going on inside my mind. Especially with the holidays coming up, managing my time and energy has been the biggest challenge so far.
I stayed in a hotel for the first month of the transition. To be honest, it was very nice not having to make my own bed or worry about certain amenities the hotel offered such as the complimentary breakfast. It was convenient but I felt a certain level of detachment and it never really felt like home. I thought about myself living in the hotel for the next 6-7 months and that's when I decided it would be best for me to transition to an apartment with one of the co-workers. So I guess it's back to making own bed and washing my own towels.
Even though I had packed up and brought all my photo gear with me, I haven't had much time to click the shutter, let alone allow myself to think creatively. Adjusting to the new work team, the people and my surroundings pretty much took up all my physical and mental energy. More time I spent away from not just taking photos but expressing myself creatively, the more anxious I became. I was starting to lose sense of who I was with all my obligations pulling me in all different directions. So I've been making a conscious effort to take a step back and not get too caught up in the environment I was in. Even though I was tired, it always felt like I wasn't doing enough. I hope things wind down after the holidays and I can take some time to re-focus, release some of the control, trust the process, create more and learn to have fun again.